Archive for November, 2009

I AM SO SICK OF POLITICAL SELF RIGHTEOUSNESS!

I am sick and tired of the Political Self Righteousness so common in the US today. We spend so much time ranting and raving and tearing down the “other side” all the while patting ourselves on the back and feeling like our little clique is gonna save the world, while nothing really happens.

This is the great evil of the Two party system. It creates an us vs. them mentality. Two options become no options as the parties focus on nothing but “winning” and competing, to the point that NOTHING ELSE MATTERS.

Democrats, Human Civilization has been going on for at least 6-10 thousand years. There are Six BILLION people on this planet. NOT EVERYTHING IS THE EVIL REPUBLICANS’ FAULT.

Republicans, Human Civilization has been going on for at least 6-10 thousand years. There are Six BILLION people on the planet. NOT EVERYTHING IS THE EVIL DEMOCRATS’ FAULT!

Both parties follow their cults of personality, Reagan, Palin, Obama, Pelosi, Clinton, Limbaugh, Hannity, Maddow etc. They win us over by telling us how they are going to save us from the evil other.

We sit around and watch the “news” that feeds us what we want to hear. For the Right its Fox news, for the Left its MSNBC and CNN. They too pat us on the back and tell us that we’re right and the other is wrong.

This is why we need to abolish the two party system. When there are 16 completing platforms, its hard to demonize them all. Perhaps people will start actually trying to fix things rather than trying to illustrate how the evil other screwed it up.

*slams his head into the desk*

Sit down today and think. Describe to yourself the typical member of the opposite party. If that person resembles something you’d find in a political cartoon or hear in a joke, then you’ve bought into the lie, and you too are a victim of the idiotic political machine. Perhaps we should rethink what we think we know.

Downloaded the XBOX 360 Update today

My Xbox is still broken in that it fucks up games. BUUUT, i still use it to play dvds (DVDs apparently spin slower than Xbox games, and have never broken on me like the games have) and listen to music.

Now I can also use it to listen to Last.fm Radio through my TV! WOOOT!

*does a dance*

Sleepy.

And the Lu returneth and other news

She’s home. She’s in a bit of pain, and she feels annoyed at a select few of her friends (none of which read this blog, don’t worry), but she seems to be relatively okay.

I have begun a new project. To further my possibly fruitless (but hopefully enjoyable) journey to become a decent writer, I am working up a theory for a new blog. In the past I have attempted to put somewhat serious and well thought out essays or articles on this blog, and due to the nature of this blog, they have come out rushed, weak, and awkward. The reason is simple. I started Ramblings to be a place to do just that, ramble. The only thing that belongs here is impulsive rants, not anything that coudl be called a “work”.

I am drafting a few things to put up, because its always best to have the first few posts worked out before putting up something serious online. It gives you time to generate further content without feeling the pressure to put something new up all the time. This may or may not go anywhere, but I might as well put my best foot forward.

New Southpark on tonight for me, new Southpark for my brit friends tomorrow.

Lubs all.

I’m restless and I don’t know what to do with myself.

One of the major pressures in my life has been relieved temporarily, and now i’m stuck worked up, frustrated and confused about what I’m supposed to be doing. I mean yes, there is the typical day to day stuff, but in general, i’ve got this feeling of listlessness; existing with no real direction or goal.

Maybe this will go away when i get back to the usual routine, when the pressure kicks back up.

I had to reschedule the appointment with my shrink today, because of mom’s accident yesterday. We weren’t sure if mom was going to be okay today, and dad didn’t want to leave not being sure.

Does anyone really understand the feeling I described earlier? The sort of… lost feeling. Everything is almost as it usually is, but take away that one source of pressure and i go “AAAH! WHAT NOW?”

I do have this feeling, that I’d like to make or accomplish something. But I don’t know if i have the time, patience of privacy to really get anything done. I dunno. I am tired of constantly being surrounded by people, yet slightly lonely. Its not that I’m abandoned or anything, my family and friends are great, but sometimes i feel like I’m alone in a lot of ways, I’m not really sure how to put it.

Lu is still in the hospital. I think she gets out tomorrow. I can’t wait to see her. Both ways.

Wz has seemed distant. Not in a cold or negative way, but in a “I need to have more alone time” way. I think i’m doing better at letting her. Of course mentioning it here probably defeats that purpose. Oh well.

I’m tired. Not sleepy, but… just… i don’t know. Tired. Monotony.

I didn’t get out to walk today, but I’m going to tomorrow. I’m generally happier when I do.

Mom and her Accident

Today mom got in a small car accident. She went to the emergency room and after waiting over an hour to be seen, she decided to come home. Her back and neck hurt a bit, and she had a headache earlier. She’s going to the doctor’s Thursday, unfortunately they did not have any earlier appointments.

My left wrist hurts a bit, I’m not sure why but I don’t think its going to be a huge issue.

Still waiting for Lu to get home from the hospital on Wednesday. I can’t wait to see her.

I annoy my friends

I’ve always done it. I have a weird vocabulary, and I don’t always know how to translate or simplify things, and when i try they think I’m talking down to them. Its not just current friends, i got made fun of in school for the same reason. “John uses big words, must be full of himself”.

I don’t know why I talk like i do, i just do.

Am i going to always be that weird guy that no one likes cause I don’t relate well?

*headdesk*

Lu still in the hospital

I knew she would be for a few days, but I’m sort of worried that she hasn’t contacted Wz and let us know she’s alright. As far as i know, she may not be, and that’s sort of messing me up. I realllly hope to hear from her, or from Wz who heard from her, that she’s okay and all went as planned. Eeek.

Of course, in a few days, she may read this. So i’m gonna say hi, this was written when you were deep under and sleeping off anesthetics! Wipe that drool missy.

Love for Lu, and all my friends really, including my newest one, whom shall be named… Rc.